a smiling entry (:

things to do on the list :

go hunting for suppliers.
do up my new online shop asap.
get someone to model the clothes.
get a good light-weight DSLR.




won 70 bucks in total yesterday on MJ, like happy only ! :D
actually it should be $120, but decided to stay and continue playing~
so in the end lose $50+ =.=" . nehmind, should be contented (:

jiayong that bloodey kuku ! everytime see me he too high lah must say me.
of course i fought back okay ! but that's our way of communication all along these years,
we have to bicker and if we don't it should look damn weird haha :D

i know you miss me alot okay. i know i know.
HAHAHA. "20 years BOYFRIEND" .
then he walked me home. was having a great headache man,
i guess it's due to the long hours of MJ as we played from evening till 4am
though there're short smoking breaks.

but when i reached home, online-d and kaching !
spent all that i won on pretty pretty items.
show you all next time round. hahaha.

and also, meet ping and min at starbucks just now for some chilling after my dinner just now. favourite chilled mocha caramel is the ♥♥♥ yo ! :D they are naughty girls, made me laugh till my sides hurt so much hahaha. INSIDE JOKE ! okay no pictures because the camera in my icecream phone sucks and my naked face today sucked as well. whenever i upload the pics i couldnt open them in PS. kind of a lil regretted to buy alr.

anyway, dearest gf is not free to collect her stuffs. and because i'm living near to my gf and am free tml, i'll head down for her. what a good gf i am okay HAHAHA :X and jy will be meeting me there at JP too cos if not i'll go there to get the stuffs and head back home straight. kind of waste time eh since i'm alr there. haha.

so.

settled out everything, like finally. seriously tiresome you know? shan't elaborate too much on that. case closed. entries locked. well. bygones be bygones, for everything and anything and anyone. the feeling is so. shiokaboo.



i'm glad that you told me how you feel
and how you cherish this 8 years friendship.
it's all over, and i don't bear grudges.

i know you can be a good friend.
10 years down the road, we still will be.
let's work it out together (;



that's the end of this entire episode.
and to everyone out there, including myself.


don't do things that made you lose your senses and then later on feel guilty or sorry because sometimes some things can't be salvaged. don't even lie for no apparent reason. don't even do or say things behind that you know it would hurt or make somebody you care feel miserable. and you wouldn't have to be fearful of anything. there wouldn't even be any consequences for you to bear. always clarify and talk it out for unresolved issues and not allow it to hang around waiting for christmas. this is at least what i have been trying to stick along with, though sometimes in my fit of anger i'll lose my senses and not think properly.

and that's why, i'll never feel afraid of anything. i don't even need to be shady. whatever i do or say, i admit. whatever i don't, i don't find it any reason for me to acknowledge words which aint from my mouth. it's just up to people to choose to believe you or not ya. make your words true and deal with things sincerely. even if things doesn't turn out like what you wish, at least there'll be no regrets and no mistakes made. i'm not preaching, i really mean it and sometimes i do hate myself for my harsh and rash attitude towards certain things.

we're just growing up,
but doesn't mean we should hurt anyone along the way.

(:

i'm thankful for friends and gfs who cared and asked though i didnt really tell em anything but yet they're understanding towards the fact that i do not want more people who are outside the situation to know because this is my own matter. i don't like going around telling people my problems and stuffs like that, esp when it concerns friendship. i'm so so sorry for not telling, you all know i have my own stand and i do not want you guys to judge. but seriously, you lovely ones are so precious in my world that i don't mind sharing every single secrets of mine with. being with all of you is like being in my comfort zone, like really.

(:


okay, long one indeed.
gonna contd watching the korean version of meteor garden NOW.
ohya~ i bought the dressing table and more items for my pet alr :D
adel~ stop talking about L4D !



good night and sweet dreams people.