for a long time i would think that you were the only one i needed.
but now, all has changed. just like all else.
nothing is ever constant in this world.
we are born, we grow up, we age and we die.
it's all part of evolution.

everything is changing all the time.
Hence the uncertainties that life brings along with it.
maybe later on in my life, i may regret this,
but i know that i've given it countless tries.
and everything was just not meant to be.

oh my gawd i need to snap out of this psychological bullshit.
it's totally not my style.

it ain't helping me feel better.
i don't even know what i'm saying or thinking sometimes.
sometimes i try too hard, i think too much,
people talked to me so much and yet i'm still not enlightened.

so what's the damn point?
i should probably adopt the heck care attitude and hopefully by taking it easy,
the right thing to do will dawn upon me and i will be enlightened.

fri night was work.
vincent gave me a msg to ask what time im going over.
met me early. so i rushed to prepare as i think im late~
and wow. the bus is like a bullet train ! (:

was controlling and controlling all night long until ..
my title dropped to the lowest alr ):

anyway. stayed back after work cos some mates were going in for a drink with kenny and alex. the rest of us went to K28. in the end we found it too crowded and so me, ivan, yongming and kangwei moved over to k10. sang awhile and when we were about to leave, adeline went missing or something. they went looking for her and i went over K28 found eric sis and sang with him while waiting for ivan cos he's sending me home by his bike. i didn't cab back with manrong and edison. adeline hid his bike keys cos she didn't want him to go off early. in the end i decided to not wait any longer because im having a huge headache from the tears and i need to wake up early. yongming wanted to send me back and i told him my area is right at the end opposite his, so he sent me to the bus stop. msged huirong when i reached home as she asked me to.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO VICTOR LIAO QING CHENG ! :D

woke up at 12.30pm on sat due to evan's call.
she told me she's going to prepare,
i went back to sleep again till 2pm.
prepared and waiting for evan to be ready.

went out and waited at fep for her.
rushed over taka to get vic's prezzie.
got him that new released armani's mens perfume (:

rushed over to cine to meet bell, wendy and vic.
it's been long since i last saw them la!!





intro-ed evan to both of em.
we were super late and they waited for us at the hk cafe.








shared french toast and mango ice with her.
it's damn huge, and of course we can't finish.

went up for movie.
scared the hell out of me please !

NO MORE HORROR MOVIES FOREVER !!

i was against the idea of watching any horror stuff like always.
then vic said they had alr bought the tix for us
(i can tell they were lying la, c'mon i knew them for so long! :X )
so i thought since its his bday i shall accomodate him then.

i'm sucha good friend right :D



but being a good friend is no no good.
suffering in the theatre as me and evan were holding on to my translucent shawl to hide our eyes while watching. kept ranting and swearing and cursing whatever shiat and vic kept scaring me as he sat beside me !! kept beating him hahahaha !

very horrible.
eek !

i think i need to sneak into my bro's room later
and sleep on the extra mattress!

went for a lil shopping and back to cine cos vic wanted to sing K.
called adelyn. side order chic wings and ebi fry. honey water :D
wendy and bell came back to find us after their shopping ~



vic went to club to meet his friends whereas we headed back.
stayed overnight at evan's place because i dont feel like going home.
chatted till i fell asleep.

sunday headed over town with her again in the evening.
she was telling me about qiqi's watch cos i wanted to get a bling one.
and then ! qiqi appeared right infront of us and i was so stunned !
she kept complimenting that my face became sharper !
then evan kept asking her to compliment her ! haha. (:

anyway. we both got that adidas top alr.
super contented (:

got myself 4 pairs of pierre cardin intimates too.
and a bling heart necklace which is super prettaye at diva !! :)



agnesb having 10% off for dbs/posb debit/credit card holders.
and 20% and 30% off for purchase of $300 or something above.
i can't remember.

was wondering should i make use of this opportunity to get that necklace?

have been spending money like tapwater lately.
hundreds and hundreds swiped off the card.
clicking and transferring $ online.

spell Broke.

i think she spent more buckaroos than i did !!
she's crazy. rich mum ! hahahaha.



went back to heeren to exchange our head bands we bought
cos we find white looking like bandages on our head(:

shopped till the shops are all closed and headed home.

Tanjiayong. see this !

you're so sad, but i can't do anything to help cos i'm in a similar situation,
except that i think the girl is a bitch whereas mine isnt :)
you've got to get yourself out of whatever it is you're feeling.
only you know best what you're going through.

but i'll be right here to listen.
anyway, cheerup okay "19 years bf" .
ohya i haven't meet you up for a long long time alr !

anyway, thanks thanks (:


i havent been really happy lately.
i miss my carefree life.

aloycius told me something just now.
i'm too disappointed in you.
whatever it is, i know i'll get over you eventually.
it's whether i want it, or not.

so guys, any part time job to offer?