a let down.

well. life has its ways to churn out the truth someday.

yes, the greatest words. forgive and forget. i will really try my best to.
although these are all in the past, i'm still very very upset.
i really don't wish things to turn out ugly, but it's out of control already.
perhaps when i've cooled down and think rationally, i'll be able to.

i've seen different sides of people. some people whom you perceive to be might not be that rotten after all. well, maybe we really should not judge a book by its cover. (: who knows, maybe they might be a devil in disguise, pretending to be the nice to you, but in the end they are the ones that want to hurt you the most. i will never trust some people, never whole-heartedly again. too much disappointments, too many walk-aways. i dont want another few blows.

yeah you don't like the girl who was with me in year1, it doesnt mean you can slander me as well by spouting whatever whats not out of the smelly mouth, and just because you hate her cos she did nasty things to you and i'm with her. fancy hiding behind the com and spam my blog that time huh? what a great thing you did.

so did you feel super proud by doing sneaky stuffs like this? or yeah, instigating people along with you too. those people are bloodey BLIND and childish. not happy, just come straight to the face and TALK. you receive pleasure by stopping to such low tactics and also, weaving tales? WOW WOW WOW.

then what now? spamming huiling's using fake names.
grow up luh, we aint dumb please. can ya dont be so HUM?

no wonder i was thinking, basically i've no enemies but why were there hate tags at that time, so you hate me so much yeah? search your soul(you still have one dont you?), do you think you did the right thing? so do you think ya owe me an APOLOGY for that? whoever and whoever who did it? or do you want me to leave hate tags using my own real name? ohya, forgotten that we can no longer able to tag now. LOLS.

huan tio you sibo?

people can be so ridiculous at times. they can be taken off so easily from reality when they didn't even took a slight bit of effort to think through things twice before making judgement on people whom you don't know so well; then believing in whatever someone around you said and gave the victim a death sentence.

felt like the biggest fool; for being kept in the dark of such shit that goes on behind my back.
strangely, i'm not very angry. but i'm so disappointed, really.

all along, i THOUGHT you were such a cute and nice girl.
damn it.

i seriously think all these craps are so like kids.
at least, we ALL KNOW the actual stuff now (;
yes, what goes around really comes around.

your reputation is worse than shit now.
its really easy to make it worse you know,
2 can play the game and we'll see who's the bitch.

the first time in my life, this kind of stuffs.
my primary, secondary, outside friends ain't like that.
i enjoy reminiscing my past, my primary & secondary school days.

when i was still alil smart & hardworking.
when everyone in school were my friends.
seniors, juniors, classmates, different classes, same levels.
when i never hated school.

lalalaa & i never failed to talk about our secondary days.

i'm a good friend, i dare to say it.
i don't stab my friends from behind, i say right words infront.
i help whenever i can, when i have good things i share.
i don't gek gao with money, i lend whenever my friend is in need.
when my friends are in trouble, i'll do my best to help.
when any of my friends been bullied, i'll definitely fight back for em.
aint i good enough?

i wish i could tell you, the amount of people who dislike YOU to the core.
i wish i wasn't such a bitch, but if i am deemed one, you made me.
i wish i would be mean enough to just give you a tight slap to wake you up.
i wish SHE and SHE will eventually find out what you actually did before,
behind their back in front of other people when she and she are not around;
and because she and she don't know, still thinking that you're such a great friend.

haha we are laughing right now.

ask yourself, did you?
only you yourself know.

i gave you chances, treated you as a real friend but you're such a let down.
i honestly don't know what you are, and you've been, up to.
everyone have eyes, they can see for themselves who is right/wrong,
i know you will be anticipated to whether what will i write.
and i write what i want (:

guilty conscience? let's continue to pretend.
there's a limit to being nice. i WAS so nice to you okay !
argh not worth it. i need a breather.

time for reflections! oh no not just me, but everyone~
especially some people!

maybe you should think back on your actions
and not what other's reaction would be when they found out.

it's time for me to think of more important stuffs like my future.
i want my retail management course badly.

i dont know if its me or what,but each time i present a bill
[especially to couples], i'd head straight for the guy.
perhaps im old-fashioned, i expect the guy to pay(at least pay first),
and when the lady paid i'll like form a not-so-good impression on the guy.

LOL. that is random.

because i had work last night, very fun :D
hahahaha. eric + yongming kept joking about part-timer 1 min 10cents.
and public hol $9 thingy.

suan and suan and suan,
then many times later, i act angry :P
and so got to know a secret LOLS.
ERIC SIS. YOU WATCH OUT.
hahahaha. and i play fighting with edwin.



my NRBS the bestest GFF ever :)
and they are dating me out tml haha!
i have loads to rant to you all man.