有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的.

爱一个人不一定要拥有.
不拥有,怎么去爱?

爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就­一定要好好的去爱他/她.

男人哭了 是因为他­真的爱了.
女人哭了 是因为她真的没办法 选择离开放弃了.

sometimes, you just feel that your life is turned totally upside down,
piles and piles of problems are piling up like mountains,
feel that you're such a failure in anything and everything,
you don't know what your future behold.

out of a sudden;
you're so scared till you tremble.
you tear when you're alone in the cold, unfeeling bus on the way home.
you don't wish to step out of your house anymore.

you feel so pessimistic about everything.
you wanted to talk to someone but you don't know how.
you just need a hug or a pat to make you feel so much better.

you sigh every now and then.
you frown while watching a comedy,
you cry to sleep every night.
no matter how hard you try to feign the smiles,
at the end of the day, it's all in vain.

and even the only person whom you can rely on now,
whom you are very willing to sacrifice so many stuffs for,
don't understand you much at all. you compare yourself with other people.other people's beautiful lives.you kept asking yourself why are you born here.

you feel total meaningless in life; so strenous.
that by ending your life, it puts a stop to everything.
you wanted so much to vanish in this world.
that's what i feel now.

and that while venting in this entry leads you to be a crying cow again.

where are the past genuine smiles and laughter?
once again, they're all gone.

please end the world soon.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PTMY ! :D

gave school a miss cos i had a visit to the dentist.
what the hell. that male dentist thinks he's so damn handsome.
and his attitude really sucks can.

" if you still don't open your mouth bigger,
i can't do your teeth. "

how do you open your mouth bigger when you're in pain,
with all the blood in your mouth you tell me?

i swear i wouldn't go there again.
went there the first time because mum brought me to,
else i'd have just gone to the private clinic
whereby the dentist is so damn caring and nice luh.

he didnt even gave me any medicine to stop the blood in my mouth,
and i had to go right home to stop them myself can ! X.X

was referred to the polyclinic
and i may have to go any hospitals for operation/injection. =.="

i think i'll faint by then.

anyway, celebrated my boyfriend, PUPPY's birthday ytd night (:

before that was school at 9.
me and laopo smuggled food up,
my first time that we had to be so sneaky can =.="

then we had great laughs, i forgot over what incident alr.
my memory's failing me now and then. haha.

and then after school,
vivie tiff and yun and me headed over town.
temptations everywhere rahhhhhhhhhhhhh !

curb or release?
the agnesb necklace is like telling me : " please buy me ~ "

-.-

by the way i forgot what really happened at night alr so i'll just roughly go through.
cut cake. blow candles. open prezzie.

haha and she kissed us cos we bought her her gucci~

drank a few cups and stopped right after that.
else i think i may become insane right on the spot and just scream at somebody.
well well. i'm glad that i've managed to curb my temper :D

ohya ! me and sue-ee sang loads of songs together !
it's been long since the last we ever highhigh together ~ ^^
i love her so much ! she understands me so well and my plight like always~

and my heart damn pain luh after seeing her like that after drinking.
but she's alright alr (:

school tml !

merely slept for a few hours and while it was raining outside,
with such a nice weather to sleep in,i was waken up by a nightmare.
can't remember vividly what exactly happened, but its about dumb.
and i sat up on my bed and cried for at least half an hour.

ohmygod.
a nightmare is just a nightmare i guess.

anyway, went town with dumb yesterday !
shopping, dinner, movie etc !

also, have bought my LV NEVERFULL, after so long !
PP's a happy girl :D

but that resulted a hole in the bank account.
1K+ flew~

elaborate when my com's ready or something.
kept rushing dad alr.

i realised, friends are like stock markets.
got use - buy in alot.
no use - throw.

lols.

to live with your loved-one happily ever after.
yes. my love.



HUGHUG. (:

met my dumb up ytd.
pizzahut takeaway to kbox :D

though its just a few hours,
i'm happy and contented (:

i bet dumb felt so too ya?

took the last bus home.
taking 184 at night is damn shiok!
reached home in 15mins :D

now in school having lecture.
bored bored bored~

hughug.

packed my messy room ytd ~
lost and found stuffs everywhere :X

meeting my dumb later !
*smiles* (:

only someone can make me smile like i mean it,
and laugh like an idiot looking at the messages.

one who clears all my monday blues away.
luvuchu.

am in school and slacking now =.=

no lessons for today, new timetable is out.
have to reach school earlier this sem,
but that spells early dismissal too.

it's raining just now.
i guess the plan for a jog after i returned fr school wouldn't work out today.

have to go and collect our F1 cheques later.

last sat.
celebrated xihut's birthday at west coast after work.
then drama by eileen again ! lols. i'm so lazy to elaborate.

cabbed home ard 9am+ .

missing dumb dumb so damn badly ): ~

who'll be there to hold my hands and lead me the way.
who'll be there to hug me tight when i feel cold.

i hope my superman a good day today~
hughug.

in a wink of eye,
school is starting tml.

this means.

we've to go back to our own respective lives.
we've to part unwillingly with each other.
we've to tell ourselves to stay strong.

dumb.
i don't know what to say.

but.

thanks for all the happiness you gave me.
thanks for tolerating my bad attitude sometimes.
thanks for teaching me what's love and being loved.
thanks for trying to give me the best you can during this hols.
thanks for all your concerns, pampering and tolerating.

keep me in your heart,
and i'll stay there always.

i told ya i've never regretted.
yes, i'll never ever.

i've to try to learn how to smile without dumb by my side,
because he told me to; though it may be very difficult.
i'll try to control my tears, so that they don't fall easily anymore.

ppl, grab your happiness tight.

(:

waken up by their calls at noon !
had a few hours sleep only ):

bathed and cabbed fr my place over to fetch mao,
and then go fetch puppy to vivo~

met up dumb. sihan and huirong there :)
vincent came awhile after.

bought a MNG turtle neck :D
and i'm so tempted by that 99bucks vest !

went in other shops.
winter wear coming in now.
i love those clothings !
but too bad sg is so damn hot!

bebe has new arrivals :)

sushi tei for brunch.
i had a good time camwhoring :X
we had loads of food + dessert ! yummy ~ ^^

then they had their puff puff outside.
candy empire and marks * spencers for gummies :D !

went back to clementi when night falls.

so pekcek that my eczema is coming back again.
damn irritating !!!!! ):

splurged ard 300bucks these two days alr.
pipi's gonna eat grass in time to come !!!

dumb must be is definitely soundly asleep now.
he's is so tired just now that he dozed off.
and me fell asleep in his arms too ~ (:

remember the *hug hug* ~
winks (;

many pics to be uploaded soon!
heavy heavy pics ~

will reply the tags <----- asap alright!
continue to tag hor !

i'm going to sleep and meet him in my dreams :X
miss miss miss miss miss dumb so much now !

G.night.

p.s : sorry ah adel never go eat with you all ~
NRB meet up again asap (: !

just returned back after Rei's birthday celebration.
loads of ppl there etc. Rei knocked out after drinking.
me and dumb went over to K12 to sing cos dumb paiseh ~
lol paiseh what sia =.=

dumb + me + puppy went for breakfast at teckwhye.
my first meal for the whole of ytd. = fries.

went out with ade. gary. evan. kangwei.
wa rao. i'm so damn like extra can ~
dumb's not there, i miss him so much =/

the thunder and lightning were so great that i don't even dare to go out of the shelters.
was drenched even though i had an umbrella with me.
went to ramen ten. i don't wanna eat they kept forcing me =.= ~
but i had no appetite la seriously. no reason at all~

in the end i spent $120+ on two tops and changed into one on the spot.
went to buy a pair of heels to match, then saw a kimono and bought immediately.
so in a wink of eye, bought so much stuffs.

anyway, i went insane la, they should know.
i kept mumbering nonsense to em. :X
lalalalala~

ade bought gingerbreadman for me :D
i'm thankful la okay. gary said i'm so cold.

wanna go in LV but it was closed ):

going to meet huirong, puppy, dumb, vincent etc later i think.
gonna catch some sleep first ~

i'm alright now.
i guess there're some emotional hiccups somewhere nowadays.
whatever~

tata !

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby I
Try and try so hard
To keep our love alive
If you dont' know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts and minds
And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like 'Oh well'
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby
I stay in love with you

Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na

Baby, I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all

What I wanna do is
Ride shot-gun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like 'Oh well'
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby
I stay in love with you



broke down again.
perhaps its time to lay the heartache down.
i've to think about it real hard this time round~

aye!
i slept for ..

12 hours !!

and here i am,
in the wee hours when almost everyone's asleep.

i'm HUNGRY ! ):

well. my darlings are so nice to me !
first thing when i went online, asked me where i go.
i said i was sleeping for the whole day.

ha. and they asked whether i've eaten.
they wanna acc me over to KimSanLeng for early breakfast !
you tell me, how can i not love them huh ?

i'm so so sorry to some friends cos i said that i'll work with em at FES
but i didnt go cos i'm way too tired today,
and when i woke up i saw huge amount of smses and missed calls.

my bad ! ):
but i did smsed back for apologies.
luckily i was spared ~

and dumb is out eating with his bros.
good good huh. PS me. but never mind (:

yesterday was my last full time again before i convert back to PT.
me. kangwei. eric - snake family ! hahahaha.
we dont have chance to snake together la, cos no recept today!
arbo. we sure .................................. :X

K16 !! (;

then i gave daily to the other outlets also.
very fun ~ haha.

"Kbox Clementi Purpur speaking how may i assist you?"

after work was wacking again at W.C !
till it was going to rain and we went back.

me and dumb abandoned em and took bus instead ~
so dumb sent me home again despite me forcing him to go home
cos its very time-consuming for him when he goes back fr my place.

but he don't listen !
stubborn boy ~

hope puppy's alright now.
ran to buy chocs for her before boarding the transport~
then dumb stole one of it fr her ! X.X


dumbdumb,
pp misses you so much right now ):
you're still the one,
securely locked in my heart.

eileen "fainted" last night during work.
me + puppy had to bring her over to NUH.

before that was DRAMA again.
i'm lazy to explain la~

spent 4hours+ down there~
didn't even had dinner at all !

=.="

and we managed to talk to each other for so long while waiting !
wanna cab back to outlet at ard midnight but no cab in sight okay !
wa liao eh. we had to walk all the way to the main road fr NUH.

she better don't play games with us.
else i'll ...........

LOL! :P

fill in the blanks yourself (:

and i cut the whole blackforest cake for all of em.
- actually xihut took over in the end :X
machiam i'm the birthday girl when i'm distributing. LOLS.
adeline wanna smash the whole cake on my face can !

idiot one. chase me somemore !
where got supervisor like that one sia ! X.X

me. dumb. puppy. mao. kangwei. yushu. huirong. evan. xiaobai. xihut.
stayed back at outlet after work to sing and drink.
i hope everyone will be smiling again and be happy happy (:

thanks my darling kang for riding his bike over to fetch dumb ^^ !.
smile smile okay.

dumb sent me home just now after we all went for breakfast.
someone elbowed me accidentally right into my mouth.
make someone guilty guilty ! :X



tell you people a secret.
shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

my dumb is so damn cute ! :D

okay. shoot me then .

was out again last night after work.
loads of people at eason's house~

while me. eason. yushu and vincent were mahjong-ing,
mao. puppy. huirong. eric. eileen. edison. played poker and etc.
too bad dumb can't join us cos he's having sch stuffs on at sentosa now.
after our game we went for breakfast before i cabbed home with mao.

mao kept disturbing me on those dimples stuffs!! X.X

i miss..

i miss NRB working together, gathering at a zone together
even if we're separated into different zones.

i miss us chasing one another in the entire outlet.

i miss us sharing juicy gossips of this and that :X

i miss us ganging up together to bully BeeChua.

i miss us backing up for each other whenever anything happens.

i miss the good old times when we sang S.H.E songs together.

i miss us screaming at the top of our voices and jumping up and down.

i miss our girls' night out at evan's place every weekend.


i guess these will still remain as part of our happy memories in JE.
though they may not happen anymore, but our hearts will still be linked as one, that i believe (:

hols will be gone soon in a week's time.
the other day i was browsing through some diamond rings.
i saw a damn chio heart ring la !!!! and its 500bucks +
so damn ex. argh~ i gonna save save save !

I WANNA SHOP BADLY !!!!!! ):

consecutive days of cabbing home.
consecutive days of being with dumbdumb.
consecutive days of slacking at West Coast Park after work till the sun rises (:

just now.
dumb. puppy. kangwei. vincent. mao. huirong. edison. eileen.

i love the stars last night (:

ytd.
dumb. puppy. vincent. kangwei. evan. eric. edison. mao. yushu.

thanks evan for ........
love ya~ (:

2 characters did stunts today right infront of everybody at WCP
and i had it video-ed down. oppsey! :X

i can't imagine a girl to be so..
loose.

=.=

sorry for emo-ing, dumb.
i take back the words i said ytd morning okay.



i want dumb to show me his "niangniang" voices again! :D
dumb is sooooooooo adorable ! *winks*

PP LOVES JACKSON !!