Saturday, February 28, 2009

i kept you in my heart, all along.


Every second. Every minute.
Every hour. Every day.


" you never stop loving someone,
you just get used to them not being in your life. "
*smiling (:

this was what i told min when she asked me about someone, randomly.
i've learnt to look at how things were in a different way and not ask why.
the decision i made, was right. but still, everything was all worth it.
i've simply no regrets.

heartache still lingers on but it's not of that much as compared in the past,
whenever i see places of memories. i miss you and i always will.
+ the special name i gave you.

it's not something that anyone can replace so easily.
l'amour ♥♥.

even if we never talk again, please remember that
i'm forever changed by who you are and what you mean to me.

and i'm not emo-ing like seriously.
it's just that i saw some photos and had thoughts to put em down.
sweet dreams to all, and you .





Friday, February 27, 2009

where will we be when we turn 25?



tried taking the exact picture of it but the pink bottle's too shiny
and can't seem to be taken on its pretty bottle.

someone gave me this as a belated val's day gift.
i received a parcel today and there was no sender whatsoever
it only wrote, happy belated valentine's day to you, PP.
13 days away from val's day~ cool or what?

and yesterday~ (:



intended to go over BPP with sharona but we waited for that slow bus963 till my patience went out of hand alr haha. and then all of a sudden my dear atiqah jumped onto me from behind to scare me and i went O.O . so in the end the 10 of us classmates + LPK went over to westmall for brunch.

pastamania.
azimah and munirah can really eat ALOT, that's like so WOW.
anyway, we girls + miss LPK shared :




two 10" pizzas.
baked rice.
pasta + upsized pasta.
garlic bread(s) + soup + drinks.




look at this lass.
MISS HER OKAY !!

still thinking over the question the guys asked regarding the long ago incident whereby joshua accidentally bumped onto me during sports and wellness and i fell.

WHY WHY?? what's with it? i'm so O.O.

then the remaining 5 of us headed over to SWENSENS for desserts thereafter haha.
yummy Giant Earthquake and FRIES(with lots of calories). while we Mmmmmm all the way.
super BLOATED okay.



and then the other day during our brunch.
who is this xiao huang ah??? hahaha.





and just now, super delicious cheezee prata after school as we were famished.




anyway, matter clarified as the 3 of us came out 2 days ago and talk it out. shan't elaborate much on that anymore, 2 simple words sum up everything; Trust and Intention. but towards the 2nd issue, i'm gonna find a good time when i'm free to talk to her on why does she try so hard to inject those assumptions on people and trying to frame me to a high extent whereby they can see it with their own eyes on what sort am i. does she have a bad intention in doing that? i mean i just want to ask her that's all. will she be gaining anything through slandering me? she can smile smile to me somemore OKAY? lol. so curious of what's behind those smiles of hers. scary~ i don't like things not getting solved cos it's like having a barrier in between and that feeling sucks.


cast that aside !

i've many happier stuffs alright :D
2009 seems not too bad for me haha.
nothing really bad happened, besides it's all in 2008 (:

just handed up the frontpage project today.
worked on it till 6am+ in the morning okay.
for 12 hours infront of my com straight !
no online shopping, no blog hopping whatsoever !
blogged when i was uploading the pics onto the file.

like shag only. and upon reaching school, finishing it up.
i panicked and whenever i started to, i'll messed up everything !
felt so stupid man.

crossed fingers* that i'll get a good grade for it.
which is, the chances are minimal. sigh*

okay, today was the unofficial last day of school for all of us.
because next week up till our last exam, there'll be no lessons so there's no point going.
felt so nolstagic. LPK showed us a video on our class with that fav yet so sad Graduation Song.


this is me with the super shag face after being late for desaru.
i only wore cosmetic lenses OMG. look at my hell small squinting eyes. eww.

hafta collect the new luggage from Polo Club at Marina tml.
how am i suppose to drag it back home? LOL.
+ birthday celebration. ha.

i saw loads of people coming in from different webs and blogs.
-----------------> my tracking feed. so TAG la !

okay update soon.
lazy bones.



Thursday, February 26, 2009



started my frontpage just only today and tml's the dateline.
goodluck to me then. WHERE'S MY SENSE OF URGENCY?

for the entire evening i designed a template of my own.
those blinkies using photoshop and etc.
let's just hope it doesnt appear wrong in the markers' screen,
because my monitor is not the usual size, but bigger longer in the width !
i have simply NO TIME to do so many things i need to !
didn't had my dinner too ! got to rush on it again NOW !!

DARN. i want to make it perfect, to me.
had brunch with classmates + Miss LPK today at westmall.
shall update on that again.

it's 3.30am alr and i still have more to go !

ok BYE!




Wednesday, February 25, 2009

heart attacks.



some things are better left unknown, the truth is so heartwrenching.
well, yes it's all in the past past past. what could i say more?
truth hurts. but what if the truth is just a facade. you still hafta go on with life.
lungs are bursting for air and i felt they're even gasping for air.

because forgive and forget is a skill to learn to be a happy person.
forget because i know ppl said it in a moment of folly, and i know ppl don't mean it.
forget the misunderstandings. forget all unhappiness that was led to. let it go.

forget forget~
trying, i know i will be able to.

like what Joker in Dark Knight said, "I've been through it. I'll be okay".
its all about gaining something, and losing something at the same time.

so many unhappy events that occured in 2008.
it's just that i choose not to ramble out here,
in the public.

stop being judgemental, yet only judge using your eyes and heart.
be honest with friends when there's a miscommunication.
always live up to your own conscience and speak truths.
don't meddle with other people's business if it has nothing to do with you.
don't squeeze your way to earn friendships over gossips and small acts.

it's a blessing in disguise that things do happen, maybe for a reason.
let's all learn to be a better person/friend/lover.

exams are approaching in a week and my sense of urgency is fianlly ticking me. should just set my piorities right , get things started and be focused for there are more important things in life like, education.

how can i deceive myself?
i act magnanimous, i try to be so much so i convinced myself i was.
i am. i should be.

my dream is what matters now.




"living in a society is like a complex board game, throwing the right dice, saying the apt words and playing the part will be the determinent of the life that turns out to be. simple philosophy prescribes that wants not, expect not then you shall not be let down. conversely, inter alia, to want and to have expectations, will lead to varying degrees of disappointment and cruelly at times, dismay."


wordplay.

never mind if you dont understand this verse,
as long as i do.

and another issue.

what kind of a person am i, i know jolly well much.
i need not answer to anyone, and friends who know me inside out know.

and to think that one of my besties from sec sch actually climbed on my back regarding the sec1 issue which is soooooooooooooooo damn long ago like WOW 6 years ago lol she can bring up old grandmother stories alr. like when's the first time she wore pampers and suck milk etc ya. which is that she didn't even state the entire TRUE story out, only her OWN one-sided story and conclusion.

up till now even if it's 6 years ago,
i didn't do means didnt.

yes, another issue she said. me and another girl did turn our backs against on her once which she remembered till now. but it's freaking sec 1 you know? you mean during sec1 people wouldn't get childish? why bear grudges till now when you are going to hit the big2 alr? or maybe she suffered a bad childhood trauma so that's why. i don't even remember what happened since its so long ago, please refresh my brain. i was petty when i was in lower sec and wanted everything to go my way no matter what, but i've changed isit it?

she said to my gf : " she and one of our evil friends bullied me during sec 1" .

lol.
ya still stuck in sec 1 ya. lol

then what, do i need to bring up what she did years ago?
whatever nasty things she did to me during sec4 just because a guy she likes is wooing me,
which i don't even harbour any thoughts on him and even drifted from him cos of her okay?
and the many times, money she borrowed and perhaps deliberately forgotten about it?
had me awkwardly ask for it politely while it dragged for so long to return?
it's not a small sum by the way, and ya for those small sums she once borrowed,
i didn't even ask them back from her.

when she needed money for rebonding i lent it to her without 2nd thoughts.
how much do you need for good rebonding ? you can guess the amount.
not little for a sec sch kid.

did i ever bring it up before until now?
because money is a sensitive issue and it affects friendship.
and i swear i once thought she's a good person, like good natured.
always telling myself to turn a blind eye on her raking up the past.

things that workmates actually said about her behind her back.
all along, i kept quiet of their gossips of her until they told me what i was said.
that is why few months ago, i told one of my sec sch besties that she'd changed alot.
or perhaps she didnt change at all, it's all in the blood?

not the first time she did it.
well i hope she sees this and do some reflection then.
look at the friends she had in close contact after graduation.
perhaps 1, 2 only or none?

even when i had seldom contacts with her cos of school,
she was still a good friend, to me.

even when i went overseas,
i even thought of her and bought her stuffs she mentioned.
she didnt even said a proper " thank you " okay.

she herself was a criminal, i got to know it recently.
got bailed out before, etc.

when i'm typing, my anger went up.
have learnt how to curb my hot temper.
right now, is to stay cool stay cool stay cool stay cool.

secondary school friends, sure to meet conflicts on the way to graduation esp close friends.
who don't right? but it's regarding how you handle it, forget em and really smile genuinely,
not bringing up and using them as weaspons like knives to kill.

i find it so meaningless man.
if i'd want to say, i'd have said alot more.

who don't gossip?
but learn it the right way and gossip true stuffs (:

" Never explain.
Your friends do not need it and your enemies will not believe it anyway. "


(:



Tuesday, February 24, 2009

wordplay.

just finished editing 481 pictures lightings etc.
and they are from my hp ONLY =.=" .
more to go for my camera i guess.


cloudy mornings.
i love ♥♥♥




visited oli after school today.

went kbox to pay for my jacket first, really very kanasai. i think im so dumb, it's like why did i order the jacket in the first place? because i wouldnt be using that often alr as i've decided not to work so much now. secondly, i thought the order was cancelled because basically NOBODY informed us part timers to go down and try the sizes. DAMMIT. then suddenly a rushing call out of NOWHERE yesterday to FORCE me to go down right on the spot or latest by today afternoon to PAY for it. MUST GO DOWN EVEN IF YOU AINT FREE.

i really bu gan yuan sia.
out of nothing throw money into the sea.
MA MA DE.

and i really dislike people commenting " you grow fatter/skinnier etc " ,
it's like. what has it got to do with you or something? MYOB.
comment once, still need to comment again. like fedup only.

anyway, we packet food up for him, very yummy but the serving is too much for me. mac delivery after that. nuggets. played with his dogs. scared the wits out of me initially when i stepped in because they were barking furiously it seemed. but they were back to normal aftermath and Scoobie lazily laid on my laps and nua like an emperor. he kept licking me !


Scoobie.

Jingle so cute. look at their eyes.
oliver feeding him with beanies




standing with two feet :D






my jelly beanie frog's eye ripped off by Jingle/Scoobie?

teevee-d till i fell asleep man and left at 8,
yet reached home only one and a half hour later =.=
darn that slowpok bus 963.

adel's 21st birthday is coming :D

am still pondering over whether should i go genting with my work friends.
needa confirm asap sia aye.

staying at home to start on my frontpage tml.
that stresses me badly because since my thumbdrive's missing,
my resume etc are all inside ! ):

on a lighter note, 98 for my excel exam :D
*beams with joy*
the bloodey 2 marks are careless mistakes sigh.
well, learn to be thankful.



will update the delayed stuffs prolly tml.
am so so tired and lazy now.

i just checked. all the way from the first pic of cambodia,
i've 1,331 PHOTOS!! no joke. i dont know how i'm gonna sort em.
spell O.M.G.



JY to everyone on our frontpage ! :)

again, i set this post's time and date again.
it's 2.11am, wed now. functioning like a vampire.
*yawns*


KAMPUA TIRED.




Monday, February 23, 2009

that man with the same charisma, ever.



it's tues. 3.34am now,
and this post is set back to date for monday.

my com's finally alright.
sad thang, all my stuffs are gone ):
those memories, those chatlogs.
aint important anymore. haha~

many pics which i didnt manage to put into my hp.
all woooosh. gone with the wind~ bad bad.

well, marks the new beginning then ! :D




hectic life recently, 24hours doesnt seem enough.
graduation day is nearing.
exams. exams.

i realise taking so many pictures are so tiring afterall,
because the uploading and the sorting are so damn troublesome !
*drives me mad*

and i've many posts to blog about !
cambodia, malaysia desaru etc.

hunting down tour agencies for good prices for our overseas trip in june.
seriously can't wait ! *big grin*

on sun i met up with my gf to go shopping.
bought two prettaye pairs of flats at a go ! :D
+ our ar-chi-pa-liang girly stuffs.

and waited for our dear adel to finish work.
passed em the stuffs i bought for em (:

in the afternoon jus now after our lunch break,
me and the girls skipped class and headed shopping !
my dear darling atiqah's influence yes no? :X

carried a leopard bagpack, tied my hair up
and walk as though imma a lil schoolgirl today !
hiakhiak someone wanna extort money from me hor? :D

two dresses at cheap prices ^^v + a new nail polish at faceshop.
again, coma in the bus trip back home. haha right vivie.

i've got an intuition that it'll be a great day later (:

shutting my eyes soon..




Saturday, February 21, 2009

love nature, love the sun :)


yesterday.
banana-boating + jet-skii-ing
double loves (:

damn blur me mixed up the dates wrongly,
i thought that it's next fri and yesterday was just a normal school day.

yun called me at 6.20am. jumped up immediately !
rushed to bathe and threw all the required things inside my bag.
cabbed all the way to school at 6.45am and reached at 7.
so speedy ! with the help of a super nice malay cab driver (:
after i told him i was late for the trip, he zoomed all the way.

he told me about desaru, the place we are heading to later.
but i never really listen just merely " haha. oh i see.. "
etc cos i'm worried about being late alr ! *guilty*
fastest cab ride i've ever taken, seriously.

first time in my life, so so so so so rushing.
cos its a limo cab which the seats are higher than normal ones.
when i hurriedly alighted,
i TRIPPED AND ALMOST FELL OFF THE CAB =.="

seafood lunch;
fried lobster, chilli crabs, cereal prawns + other dishes etc

banana-boat + jet ski.
never regretted paying to play.
so SHIOKABLE !!

i wanna go again again and again ~









fruit and veg plantations.
lil white and black rabbits, monkeys, roosters, turkeys, OSTRICHES !!







buffet dinner.
love the green mangoes (:

fireflies watch in the night in the boat circling around.
beautiful kampung place.

back in SG in the midnight.

breakfast - prawns
lunch - prawns
dinner - prawns
supper - prawns

i had prawns for 4 meals consecutively !
OMG.

i wanna get a FEDORA HAT !
okay random.

update that with pics when my com's ready (:





Thursday, February 19, 2009

will you take me to somewhere we can be alone

SOK SEBAI !! :D
it means hello in cam language.

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i miss cambodia !

yesterday LPK told us that maybe we are going over again, but it will be under the conditions of paying ourselves without using our PSEA account + not going to stay in a comfy hotel like before but staying with the kids down there (:

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so cute !! :D

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sunset.

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yours fatty truly.

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i took this.
bees collecting pollen in this pretty purple flower (:

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just waken up.

slow update because, my com died on me AGAIN. it's like the 538975858972345 times, yet AGAIN. so i've to wait for the technician to come to my house and repair it. that sucks, because meanwhile i do not have my com to play. and i dont like my younger bro's com, cos it lags like HELL.

and credits to my other youngest bro, it was during my trip that his hand appears to be super itchy to use my com and insert a stupid thumbdrive with virus to put in games without my permission and there goes my com ! that's why i hate having siblings ! i've 1 elder and 2 younger alright, that's too much because all i wanted was just 1 sister thats all!! that's life i guess. you can't choose.

neh mind.
i've alr lash it all out on him on the day i came back.
i'm a bad sister yes no?

whatever, dad's gonna get me a new lappy once i'm admitted into poly
(i hope so + my desired course).

did anyone misses me while i was away?
i bet someone does, you know right (;

i received a belated valentine's day prezzie today,
was something little that i wanted so much and tyvm !
*wide grin*

skipped school today because i was plain lazy.
yada yada.

I GONNA GO CHECK OUT THE TOUR AGENCIES BECAUSE THERE'RE GREAT DEALS RECENTLY FOR OVERSEAS TRIPS WHICH ARE SO F CHEAP CAN AND WE ARE SO GONNA FLY AGAIN PRETTY SOON ! NRBS STEADY BO?

girl, come back from your china trip asap!
i miss you (:

how can i live without a com you tell me?
finished 3 books at a go in two days to pass my time ):
seriously, yakuza moon is a lil not worth the price,
it's a $27.90 for it arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.



my digestive system looks so damn good recently.
i eat, go to the loo immediately. eat again, loo again.
hahaha.

now my stomach's empty.
i'm so hungry !

jogging later :)



Tuesday, February 17, 2009


hello all!
i'm back from cambodia, safe and sound (:
the place aint as dangerous as it seemed to be.
or rather, it's a place filled with warmth and hope for the better future.

had a very great wonderful experience over there.
how fortunate we really are, now i really really understand.
and not a single fat person i saw there; all skinny people.

how they left their unhappy past behind, go on with life and be stronger.
i've learnt so much.

our share of tears and laughters,
the smiles we brought to the kids.
i'll never forget.

i love cambodia ! :D




Wednesday, February 11, 2009

jetting off in a couple of hours ,
and i have many packages to clear on my hand.
everything's in a rush, a big big rush.

bought 7 stamps at a go today,
was wondering if they have those value pack(like supermarket)
so that i can save some money?

my fredperry shoes arrived after two weeks of waiting, bought from their original website and they're too big for my feet and i've got no choice but to sell em when i come back i guess? when i wore em i looked as though i'm a big-foot giant. what a disaster! i love em so much ):

and my mailbox's flooded with mails tonight! like happy only :D cos 5 of my spree parcels reached me! they are like, delayed for how many days alr and i've still yet to receive em which i dont know why either? my dad complained that soon there will be no more spaces for his own letters. LOLS. so now i can have a peace of mind that they didnt go missing in the lost mails.

ohya. just changed my choices. 1st and 2nd choice swapped. last choice i changed to NP's Business IT cos i know if i suay suay were to get in Temasek Poly i'll cry at how early i've to get up everyday for school.

my luggage's 1/2 packed for now, the very last minute throwing in and checking. let's cross fingers i don't suddenly go:

" OMGAWD WHERE'S MY PASSPORT
WHERE'S MY HP WHERE'S MY CAMERA??!! "


and panic frantically in the airport.
hopefully this get-away will be all smooth sailing and good beneficial learning.

last night mahjong-ed till 8 in the morning, headed home to bathe and hastily change for school. as soon as i boarded the bus and settled down, i dropped into a coma till i nearly missed my stop lol. dragged my lazy feet to school and started painting my nails cos i know tonight i wouldnt have time to do so.

my uncle will be driving me over to the airport later because daddy can't make it. and i've to wake up at like, as early as 4am to prepare luh ! =.="

a lil more of my proj need to be done too ):
no need sleep liao lor!

thats all for now, miss me :)



Monday, February 09, 2009

" peng roti prata.. F lil boys.. "

NRWZD is nice to watch because you get to learn more trends and styles + makeup tips
but sometimes you tend to doze off in the midst of the show.


body-less creature.

we chose our choices for poly in the morning.

  • Choice 1: [3 Yrs] NP - Business Studies
  • Choice 2: [3 Yrs] SP - Business Administration
  • Choice 3: [3 Yrs] NYP - Business Management
  • Choice 4: [3 Yrs] NP - Tourism & Resort Management
  • Choice 5: [3 Yrs] TP - Retail Management

was wondering if i should adjust my 1st and 2nd choice. i'm super interested in retail management and the course is included under my choice 2 and 3 in Business Management. but i wanna go NP cos its nearer =.=" what do you think? i have 1 more+ days to reconsider and change cos the last day of amendment will be on 13th and we'll still be in cambodia ):

anyway! collected my pay after school. met min after that like after so long the last i saw her luh!! trimmed my eyebrows. posted all my buyers items and one more last item for a meetup tml cos the buyer woke up late today. starbucks to chill and gossip :D she sent me home aftermath. love her man :)

did speed bank transfer last night !
paid someone who was doing customization for tees like this :

http://store.americanapparel.net/2001haw.html#i

price is in USD by the way.
and American Apparels Tees doesnt have Pp ):
it only has Aa all the way to Kk, Mm, Rr, Ss, Xx, Zz
but NOT Pp at all. how sad. haha so i ordered my Pp from the girl !



and paid, but it takes 3-4days to finish the customisation.
so i guess i can only collect it after my trip ):

did shopping just now in town with sister E.V.A.N ~
we hit town in the late evening and while waiting for her i went walking around.
i saw so many stylish handsomes. hahaha. *drools*
4 new pairs of pumps and heels for the day (;


pink checkered soft pumps. blue jeans-like peep-toes.


pointed with heart webbings. purple platform heels.



my feet grew smaller by a size i swear !
i dont know why also ! :D

and an ACID SPLASH DRESS WHICH I FREAKING LOVE IT!!!
from Max and More in wisma. everywhere in LJ is out of stock now.
something very similar to this, but it's Scooped-Neck and it's a dress.





so prettaye :D
2thumbsUPUP!


continued spree-ing !
she bought two jackets from STAGE(freaking $300+ at a go!) and a few sweet dresses + a thick dress for her china trip. this lucky girl everytime go overseas ah !! remember what we all said, NRB must go on a trip asap. by this year okay !

went c8 to find adel, were famished to:
SHOKUDO PASTA and PIZZA.



i had soft shell crab tempura pasta(i lioke!)
while hers was chicken karaage.





will go again next time ! (:
reached home just when the clock strikes 12 lol.
like shag only.

i want this badly but considering the amount of money i'll spend on the Polaroid films,
i'm having second thought on this ):



and my all-time desired :


KOALA DAMIER !!



MUMMY I MENTIONED IT TO YOU LIKE SO MANY MONTHS AGO ALR,
AND YOU SAID YOU WILL THINK ABOUT IT SO I DIDNT FORGET OKAY.

PLS PLS PLS MY DEAR MUMMY.. I WILL TRY TO HELP YOU WITH HOUSEWORK!

my hp's background pic was this and i kept admiring it whenever i flipped my phone open luh. like crazy only. we shall take pics of our wallets tgt when i got mine okay! steady next month!! (;

havent gotten my zipper dress yet ):
WTH MY FRIEND JUST TOLD ME THAT THERE'S A ZOUK FLEA YTD!

=.=" missed the good grabs alr.



two of my lucky buyers,
especially wrapped em in pretty wrappings cos i ran out of normal ones.
haha and pasted colourful stickons (:

have to continue on my project and head out for mahjong later. they forced me to play, lol. really a lil unwilling cos i've yet packed my luggage and so much things to do! that spells disaster. aye dont know luh !

i'm packing my luggage now and i felt so blur !!
laid all my desired clothings out and what to choose !!??


bought this recently. cute?

i feel so ugly right now.
need to do something man.

ok luh busy busy.
BYE !